变？

人，是不会变的。

变的其实是

自己看待别人的

观点

角度

变的其实是

自己对待别人的

态度

看法

而导致这些变化

就是对别人的认识

对别人的了解

关怀

Workin

It's pretty cool to hear that you've started working, well erm...it's not that I don't want to work, in fact I'm dying to start work, but just that I do not have enough time. I'm leaving just 2 days later, all the way till next year. If possible, I'll try my best to find a job over there. Well, just...yea, all the best. Take care.

This song, the lyrics is very deep. The first time I listen to it, I thought I understood it's meaning. Then I started to lose my understanding to the words. Now, I think I'm starting to understand it. Please, enjoy.

BOSTON by Augustana

变

人，是会变的。

飞

转眼间就两年过去了，眼看身边的几位朋友也要到异乡，而我自己，七天后也将离开。不禁想起在重庆的日子，顿时在心中有种矛盾的心情，不知该回忆起那段美但痛的旅程；还是该让它沉到海底，把它给彻底忘了，别再打捞起。

昨天和几位一同到重庆的好友去看电影，汉祥、楚宾、弘一和景翔。很高兴又能见到他们，而今天环廷就要飞到印度了，就乘搭七点的班机。很可惜我已决定不送他机了，俊廷也认为我在那儿也毕竟较为不恰当。

下个礼拜我也就要飞了，这样一去就直到明年一月才能又与大家相聚。我在香港有与已在那儿的绍哲预约见面了。有些迫不及待，但也有些不愿意；有些渴望到那儿，但也有些感到可惜得再拿了那么长一段时间。我甚至有些痛恨自己当初为何要答应与曲阜在种种的“劝说”下。

由回忆起那段日子，我一直无法放下这个牵挂，因为我一直不愿意原谅我自己失去你。并不是无法拥有你而难过，而是因为那份可惜是我十分伤心。你我就擦肩而过，闪过对方的生命中，你就如夜空中一颗流星，瞬间的亮丽闪烁，但落在广阔无际的原野中着火，我一直放不下因为我们之间的误会仍还没解决，而我们也甚至当不成朋友。

那种仿佛刚认识就要在片刻中告别的分离，的痛苦，是那么痛，是那么痛，是那么痛的。 我们只想再见彼此多一天，就多一天。不要那种突如其来的再见，这是一种会心的沮丧。

思念 挂念 想念。

我们。。。能不能。。。再。。。重来？

Music Music Music Guitar

Music Music Music Guitar

I've so much time even until when I'm in Hong Kong from 24Nov, or even on the 5 hour flight time on the plane.

I shall devote all my time or perhaps most of my time :P to music and my dear guitar.

I shall make use of the time to fill in the lyrics for the song BenedictChia had composed.

I shall start making up chords for songs and make good music.

And through all these kind of expressions of music

I think I can try to forget about you.

I hope I can numb my heart by my passion for music.

I will learn how to tackle the pain I feel.

I hope time, the grim reaper that had taken away how we used to be,

Will take away the pain too.

And perhaps you in my heart as well.

I will present you my music in return of gratitude.

And I hope you'll like it.

Just wait and see

And listen to the song I'm writing.

Tentatively,

It's for you.

Just you.

Now,

Question is,

Will I be able to walk out of my Misery?

Or will you live in my heart,

Now and Forever?

Misery by MAROON 5

Now and Forever by Richard Marx

ShaoZhe

Today ShaoZhe has flown away at 15:30. I really can't wait to see him again.

一个人

我不想出门
因为我只想一个人
我只想尽快习惯着一个人的寂寞

熟悉这一个人的世界

体会着一个人的空间

Three weeks ago,

we're all preparing all we can for the start of O levels.

After O

Today is the last paper, but I feel different, I don't feel the kind of joy and excitment of the lease for freedom. I don't feel so much of that in particular. But instead the feeling of losing any further chance of seeing all friends as a class, as a cohort. Sec4 cohort.

We all are going to leave each other and lead a new way. Today marks the end for some schoolmates the end for this stage in life, but as well as a start of a new stage in life. There are even more questions for us to ponder and wonder, more problems for us to solve and answer, more obstacles for us to overcome. It is just a thousands of uncertainty in our future yet.

To a certain extent, this sudden plunge of responsibility makes me feel rather lost, rather uncertain.

Alone

I don't wanna spend the day alone.

I feel so wrong.

Far Away

Some things are just meant to be far away from you.

The more you leap forward to grab it closer to you

The more you will fall.

The more you fall

The more you hurt.

And you would never know

When will the injury recover

Or will the wound worsen.

When things get worse

The more you feel lost

And the more you feel so

The more you cry... ...

But the more you cry

The more you grow stronger

And the more you are able to make a decision

Clearer and more sensible.

You have to tell yourself

That when things are at its worst

Don't ever give up

For things are just only gonna get better.

Break Down

I will be right behind you when you fall.
I will be right beside you when you cry.
I will be right there ready to lend you my shoulder.
I will be right in front of you blocking every danger ahead.
I will always be by your side giving you my support.

And you are right there, with my heart with you.

I hope I am the one whom you will ever think of.

I hope I will be the one whom you will ever approach when you're lost.

I hope I will be the one whom you will ever turn to.

I just hope you will ever talk to me again.

I guess I'm just tired.

And way to tired from thinking of you again.

But only I am, not my heart.

It's my head that says let go.

My heart that grabs on to you.

And whenever I see you

Not just my face shows the smile

But too, my heart will.

Always.

It's still me that feels the pain.

I know and I always remind myself.

Constantly

That I can never break down

In front of you.

For I know deep down

That once I fall

I fall forever.

Is it still you in me?

Is it still you in me?

It still seems that you can never be erased from my mind.

It's like when I tried to press on the [Del] key, the system would show me [The current file is still in use, please try again later.]

I really wanna tell myself that you're just somebody that I've crossed paths with, but somehow, you're shadow is so vivid that it always appear every time I close my eyes.

And you are exactly everything I see.

I'm just really glad and grateful that you'd taken a photo with me and that is my sweetest memory.

I just hope, that I could ever be the one you would think of when you need help the most.

And I will just continue hoping, in vain.

It's just as real yet virtual like a dream.

I wish you can be by my side, and just like the song by David Choi, By My Side.

There's just time to time that you're the only person I would ever think of, even when I'm asleep.

The next thing I know, it's all fake when I wake up.

It's just that false impressions and happenings that make me smile, but whenever I turn around, I know deep down, that it's just simply not gonna happen.

There you are, continuing your rainbow-colourful life.

And here I am, glad to keep all those gloomy clouds away from you.

This song, by David Choi too, By My Side.

Enjoy!

David Choi - That Girl

I couldn't help it, but this song really is simply awesome. It just describes and depicts the settings in the inner you from time to time through his voice. Simply Awesome, Too Good. Enjoy!

That Girl - David Choi

Oh, tonight I'm feeling fine
I'm alone, just wasting time
No Friday movie nights
Or romantic candle lights

I'm just having conversations
With the thoughts in my head
All I hear are angels crying
Oh, won't they just sing instead
It would be wrong for me to say

I don't need that girl by my side
I don't need that girl in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold her when she cries

I don't want to say she's my kind
I don't want to say that she's mine
I don't want to tell her that
I love her more than life
More than life, Yeah
Love her more than life
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Honestly, this won't do
How is she doing?
I tell myself I'm feeling swell
But I know I'm such a fool

I could take it as a new beginning
But you know I don't feel that way
Who will take all this pain away?
I know it's wrong for me to say
I don't need that girl by my side
I don't need that girl in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold her when she cries

I don't want to say she's my kind
I don't want to say that she's mine
I don't want to tell her that
I love her more than life
More than life, Yeah
Love her more than life
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Talk about a sin
Was the day I walked into the other side
I would run back in
I wouldn't waste no time
I know it's wrong for me to say

I don't need that girl by my side
I don't need that girl in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold her when she cries

I don't want to say she's my kind
I don't want to say that she's mine
I don't want to tell her that
I love her more than life
More than life, Yeah
Love her more than life
Yeah, yeah, yeah