Coach Carter

Tired

我累了，
我真的累了。

顿时想起李圣杰的远走高飞。

我已经感觉到疲累
只想在你怀抱入睡
不在乎别人
眼中是非~

我真的真的累了。
我不知道该如何，
我不知道该如何。

累。。。

School Sucks

I'm starting to hate school. Then you'll ask me, nobody will like school, or perhaps, I thought you've already been hating it. The thing is that, I just feel the strong sense of resist of me against this stupid place.

I just didn't have such aggressive negative thoughts of that place before. I don't know why it has been bothering me in times. I feel the heart-break whenever I step into the school, especially on Mondays when the nightmares haunts right after the pleasant and peaceful dreams.

Perhaps is those really nice friends who had been through thick and thin with me, and now no longer by my side. My dear friends, when can I ever see you again? How I really wish.

And perhaps is the stress from the work and exams. Tests, lessons, teachers. I don't know. Or perhaps is the jealousy, but I don't understand how I'd ever got that feeling. Most probably is because I'm jealous of people's results. I just wasted 2 years, and right now I'm stucked in such a class, which I just totally find it hard for me to blend into.

I'm envious on how good other teachers are in other classes. But I always try to convince myself that my teachers are still better than the others. I tried. I'm always trying. I want to get closer to my classmates, but just somehow, I feel the magnetic force repelling us away. It's just those kind of disturbance that really irritates me.

Lesson time, I just simply can't understand why can't they just shut up and listen to the teachers. They are like those kind of idiots who don't have self-discipline and don't know what they are doing. They are just way too much. Can't they just keep quiet?

Or perhaps is just that someone who's always on my mind. But the problem is that even me myself can't see that someone I'm thinking of. It may sound weird and bizarre, but indeed, I find it hard to identify who is that person. Maybe I need more time to search for the identity.

Or is it those opportunities that I've missed or misused that are always dwelling in my head? I just wasted too many things, way to much of them. At times, I really hate myself and really gave myself harsh punishments. At times, I really want to sit down and have some coffee or tea and cry our hearts out. I want to ease your troubles, and I wish I can do so to mine as well.

There are just way too much troubles and worries in school. School is just like a prison. They're totally the same.

I wish a wishing star would drop by and mend my broken heart. I can hear my own heart shatter into pieces and falling down to my feet. And I wonder, when can I ever stop crying myself to my nightmares, and start smiling myself to my dreams. Sometimes, I feel like breaking down and smash the ground and shout out loud. But, will there be a shooting star that will whizz by? But, will there be my friends and fly me to the paradise? But, will there be that somebody
and get me out of this nether world?

Star, what a wonderful word.

Beautiful

What a beautiful 2 hours. Les Choristes. What a beautiful film. Many beautiful and heart-warming tunes, blowing off our mind, bringing us out of this harsh and hard world.

This little rhythm has brought me back in time. Time really flies, but not like a bird, I'd put it as a rocket. I'd like to make it crawl like a strong and relaxing turtle. Take your time, bud'!

How I wish, how I wish, how I wish.....

Those 2 years with Respect, those beautiful days in China, the bus trips I'd been sitting with Gerontius, whistling those fabulous music. Those happy time of success when I'm working with Jasmon, Eunice and Clarissa. Those glory brought to me when I was having fun with Wen Bin and fellow people. The commitment of making noise, screwing up some fun with Hong Yi and Jing Xiang. Those stupid joking days with Chubin. The super-whacking-scratching-fighting fun with Han Xiang. The times when I'm always making fun of Sing Yan. My dear brother Tze Wei. Ever-teased Wang Peng And Shao Hang, always being critised by some of us....not really critised..laughed at....perhaps...

Looking back, with laughter of joy, and tears of despair. It's hard to not smile with a crack in the heart. A flawless smile is what I have always been looking for. The sweet aroma in the air, brings by the little bitter of the soil.

Memories are just like wine, the more effort you put in, the better the wine will be. Fagrant of the wine, with company of the little taste of the bitter grapes. The longer it is kept, the more valuable it will be.

Wine, memories....

Charming times that draw my fullest attention which are so beautiful but so hurtful.

How I wish, we could just sit down, have some coffee or tea, laughing and chattering our time of. Forgetting the time. I really want to do that. Excellent days we had. Fantastic.

Let the scent of our story,
lead the way.
Let the fagrant of our glory,
follow our way.
Let the fagrant of our success,
rule our way.
Let the breeze of our satisfaction,
cool our way.
Let the light of our passion,
show our way.
Let the flowers of our friendship,
bloom our way.
Let the skies of our brotherhood,
shine our way.

Let the tears of despair,
find their way...

Excuse me, coffee or tea?

Saturday night FilmArt

Hey! There is a great movie on later at 10pm on Okto. Les Chorites, The Chorus. It is a French movie and really nice.




Here's the trailer.

What do I think

It's not about suiting me only. It's not me that is the only one demanding so much. Look at the society now, look at the competition. Look at those fierce fights. It's not just about the piece of paper that says a U-grad. It's the type of skills and technique you've got.

It's the everyday life where you have the most time and most chance to improve oneself. We all mesmerise the superb skills of Dwayne Wade, LeBron James, Kobe Bryant. We all amazed by those ultimate footwork of Jay Jay Okocha, Ronaldinho, Ricardo Quaresma.

But is that all we can do? If we work hard and push ourselves beyond out limited standard every single time and put in those little more effort to make ourselves grow, can't we work closer to those stunning skills which make everyone of us unique and stand out so as to get ourselves a better advantage to excel in our future? Every little details are there not because they are to be left out. It's not there to be neglected. It's there for people to see you, for people to spot you, for people to recognise you, for people to acknowledge you. Grab the chance, it's one and only.

What's more important is all about the word in us named 'attitude'. That's why interviews come along. Everyone has to go through interviews before they get into the company and have a job. Without the right attitude, a person won't learn, a person will not have the right values of life, a person will ruin the company. Those high positioned people won't never like to have such people.

What else to do then? Change the attitude. Attitude is a habit and likewise, habit as an attitude. Start young. Start fast. Start right. Don't waste anymore time. Do it now. And the superly Nike's slogan is an absolute stunner. JUST DO IT. It's just a 3 words sentence. But it's extremely difficult to achieve. As what said, easier said than done.

Of course! It's MUCH MUCH MUCH more easier. I can't say whatever I like. But can I do it? Think about it. Give yourself sometime and think about it. Think of what you want. Think of what you need. Think of what you want to do. Think of what you need to do. THINK!

I see the change. That's what I want. That's all I want. Yes, I do see the change. There's a lot of change. This gave me a boost in confidence on what I've been doing is correct. It signalled to me that I'm one step closer. Step by step. I want to push things to the better side of life. I do not want to just stop at this stage. I want all of us to be a better person. I want all of us to have a better life. I want all of us to enjoy. But I do not want everything to be just out of fun and leisure. Every thing is a learing process. Put in your heart and soul, put in the effort. It'll be much more fun. There is too much to learn. So we have to put in an effort for the attempt to learn as much as we can.

Just think. No rush. Spare some time. Sit under the tree. Close your eyes. Calm down. Although I said that the society right now is a fury battle. But at times, it's really useful to keep yourself away, give some space.

This is what I left out terribly. And this is what you guys need. And for this, I really need to apologise deeply. I stress on you people too much and yet I've not been stressing it on myself. I am to take the blame. It's me that got you people into such state. I have to do it myself before anybody else would be persuaded to do so. And why, WHY AM I NOT DOING IT! WHY!!! Right now I'm so furious of myself. I should be the one improving. And prove to everyone, it's feasible. And I am blaming myself for not thinking of it.

I am tired, tired and yet it is not because I'm stressing out, BUT YET I AM TIRED BECAUSE I WASTE TOO MUCH TIME STRESSING ON OTHERS. Why am I so foolish? I'm tired of the wrong cause. I am so so so foolish!

For being the most damn horrible boss. I'm sorry. For not being the kind of caring friend. I'm sorry. For pushing to hard. I'm sorry. For not concerning on you guys. I'm sorry. For not consoling you. I'm sorry. For being too fierce and scary. I'm sorry. For getting myself out of those jobs and chores. I'm sorry. For demanding too much. I'm sorry. For stressing too much. I'm sorry. For doing any wrong deeds. I'm sorry. For coming out of many stupid and terrbly wrong plans. I'm sorry. For any wrong steps. I'm sorry. For not knowing you inside out. I'm sorry. For having the wrong attitude. I'm sorry. For being too withdrawing. I'm sorry. For missing any appointments. I'm sorry. If I've every scold you. I'm sorry. For not punishing myself. I'm sorry. For not saying sorry whenever I have to. I'm sorry. For being too long-winded. I'm sorry. For not sharing. I'm sorry. For not getting the right instructions clearly. I'm sorry. For not expecting what you expected me to. I'm sorry. For being such a terrible person. I'm sorry. For not appreciating. I'm sorry. For crititsing. I'm sorry. For always thinking the word "I". I'm sorry. For being selfish. I'm sorry. For not suffering as much as you do. I'm sorry. For making you suffer. I'm sorry. For not being trustworthy. I'm sorry. For not being suitable. I'm sorry.

Over here, I apologise. I'm sorry. I just found out I'm actually dropping tears throughout the whole text. I'm so disappointed in myself.

原来我一直以来，都是个坏人。

Les Choristes

This is my favourite video. One of my favourite movies as well. Gotta watch the trailer. You'll be definitely drawn to the movie.

School today

Today was quite a nice day in school. Let's start off from flag raising, since....OH!!! Almost forgot. Give me a sec'.

Whosh, I was thinking what happened in classroom before flag raising. Jeramyn passed me his thumbdrive and asked me to transfer some things for him. And by the way, I think this is my 100th post. YAY!!! Hahaha....

Right, I've transferred those items he requested. And flag raising.....hmm..some Sec3 guys were called out by Mr. Chua. I heard from GaoHan that they played soccer and spoilt a lamp post. Quite vague arr.....That's what he said.

Then I think EP Terry got called out to the yellow line by Mrs Long. Then that Rhine....quite...nosey. Commented that he was being defiant. Crazy fella....Then Gavril got called to the back....guess for what reason....wearing black socks....that's pretty lame.

Then she saw me, she asked,"Eh?? Why your..your, the specs broken arr???"

I think Rhine again, he said go yellow line.... Don't think she really heard him.

Then I replied her,"Need go yellow line?"

She said,"NO NEED....SinFai is a good boy...."

Quite cool arr....but then...I don't think she needed to say so loudly....Then lesson today English, Physics, Creative Arts, Chinese and SS, with an additional class of Chemistry.

English was a free period, AL didn't come. Chaos in the class as usual, and I finally got a chance to get hold of Alvin's phone. Then VP came into the class. Talk talk talk, XianWei got caught for not having school badge and name tag. Finally she went out of the class, then proceeding to CR. PoYang rang out of the classroom, tucked out. Then he got caught....PWNED!!! Okay.....I shouldn't be so bad.....

Physics, GC came in. Teached as usually, then he tried to explain why people fight with their legs opened wider and keep themselves low. Err.....he demonstrated quite....funny? Corey was 'AMAZED' by it....errr...yea....he sai something like "THAT MAKES YOU MORE VULNERABLE~" Yea, something like that.

Creative Arts, we headed to the MRL, and guess what, DAVA was INSIDE!!! He looked at the crowd outside the room, then he walked out. And of course we walked in......Waited for quite sometime, Mr. Tan came. Lesson time.....

Recess, buy some food to eat. This and that. Nothing much. Chinese was as usual. Loads of laughter and jokes from ZeHao. He was late, then I think he came out with some confusing excuses. And 听写， I got 84....same mark as the previous one....I think....

SS, second last lesson before MYE. Learnt how to write the explanations. Quite simple. But during the exams, I don't think it'll be so easy. DANG!

Chemistry, I just sucked in this test....I got 14/25... Disappointed. Mrs. Tan explained the answers. That should be it.

Saw HanXiang when walking to the canteen. Went home with him while WangPeng went for CCA. On the way out, that stupid fella crapped like some dumb people. Then he went to buy bubble tea, and I got myself a waffer. He daobao-ed a pack of rice before he left school. Incredibly he finished it before reaching the 7-11....perhaps he did before we covered half of the way out.

Tommorrow, 2 tests. A Maths and Physics. Gotta study. Ohyea, Physics. On bus just now. HanXiang crapped with Physics. Especially when it came to the advantages and disadvantages of friction. I should not elaborate it. Just take note of the keyword. FRICTION

That should be it.

财富

一个人的财富
不在于一个人
拥有
多少，

而是
一个人
能付出
多少。

Blog Quiz From Jasmon

Heyyoz! I got this thing from Jasmon. Should work out right...thanks! Anyway, I know I'm behind time for that story. It has been quite some time since I'd written something.

My 21 friends who i can think of right now:
1)Joey
2)Jasmon
3)Gerontius
4)JianYou
5)Kyanta
6)TaiFong
7)Jinnee
8)HuiZhen
9)HanXiang
10)Chubin
11)WangPeng
12)Clarissa
13)Eunice
14)DingYi
15)Johann
16)KhaiTerng
17)JinWee
18)YangZhi
19)Jeramyn
20)Enzo
21)Alvin

How did u meet 7?[Jinnee]
Bedok CC Wushu Hub

What would you do if you and 15 never met?[Johann]
That means we'll have no Dragon, the Azure Dragon and I would not have a friend who has been together with me through Wushu for....the 9th year.

What would you do if 20 and 1 dated?[Enzo & Joey]
I would say.....wth? They don't even know each other....I guess.....

Have you seen 17 cried?[JinWee]
Try looking for the word cry in a NCC guy's dictionary.

Would 4 and 16 make a good couple?[JianYou & TaiFong]
Nope! Firstly, they do not know each other in any possible ways. Secondly, they are of different schools. And lastly, *look at the height~~*

Do you think 11 is attractive?[WangPeng]
Err......?

What's 2's favourite colour?[Jasmon]
He mentioned it in the same quiz in his blog.....blue........

When was the last time you talked to 9?[HanXiang]
Friday, in school, after school, before CCA, when I saw him at his CCA meeting area...and I told him I thought he told me he's gonna pon his CCA......dang!

What language does 8 speaks?[HuiZhen]
I don't know....I think I....nonono, we call that "xiaozharbo" language.

Who is 13 going out with?[Eunice]
Difficult question......

Would you ever date 17?[JinWee]
And he'll gonna crash me flat on the ground next.....

Where does 18 live?[YangZhi]
Bedok. I can even list the whole address.....better not. Later people can to harrass him....

What's the best thing about 4?[JianYou]
He's....EVERYTHING. *especially hairstyle....I believe he's still as particular on it now~*

What would you like to tell 10 right now?[Chubin]I
SMS to this number 9*** **** NOW!

What's the best thing about 20?[Enzo]
NOTHING!

Have you ever kissed 2?[Jasmon]
Hell yes....NONONONO...I mean no....

What's the best memory you have of 5?[Kyanta]
Flying skills.

When are you going to see 4?[JianYou]
When fate knocks on our doors.

How is 7 different from 6?[JinWee & TaiFong]
One is tall and one is.....huge.....

Is 2 pretty?[Jasmon]
SURE HE IS!!!!

What's your 1st impression of 15?[Johann]
DRAGONLY PRO!

How did you meet 3?[Gerontius]
Erm....I met him when he met me.....

Is 14 your best friend?[DingYi]
Hopefully?

Do you hate 12?[Clarissa]
Like how can I hate her.....only that she is always not free for STBF outing....(which is just once that I tried to organise one....)

Have you seen 18 in the last month?[YangZhi]
Perhaps last year.....

When was the last time you saw 16?[KaiTerng]
Just now training.....in the morning.

Have you been to 5's house?[Kyanta]
It means majong....nonono...."major"

When's the next time you'll see 10?[Chubin]
WHY ARE THE QUESTIONS REPEATING?!?! Anyways...you shouldn't be asking me this question....there's one more person who is VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY eager to see him.....by the way...I think I'll see him at the next Wushu Grading.

Are u close to 11?[WangPeng]
How close is close? Is being lesser that 3cm apart of each other in every weekdays for at least 5hours each day called close?

Have you been to movies with 4?[JianYou]
Why are there so many questions asking for number 4??? YES! Absolutely, I still can remember what movie we watched. It's the...hold on....was it Chicken Little?

Have you gotten into trouble with 8?[HuiZhen]
What do you mean by that? But if you were to ask, "Have you gotten 8 into trouble?", the answer would be YEA!!!!

Would you give 19 a hug?[Jeramyn]
How should I say it......

When have you lied to 3?[Gerontius]
I'm lying to him in every words I told him.

Is 11 good at socializing?[WangPeng]
COZ HE IS! He flirts more!

Do you know a secret about 8?[HuiZhen] She's now running a pork bussiness.

Describe the relationship between 12 and 8?[Clarissa & HuiZhen]
Next time, I think I should list the people who are in a class or known each other.....

What's the best thing about your friendship with 9?[HanXiang]
Smashing handphones.

What's the worst thing about 6?[TaiFong]
It is also the best thing about him. His height.

Do you have a crush on 12?[Clarissa]
DAMN YOU! Why is this thing so inaccurate? Not me who have or had a crush on her. It's someone else.

How long have you known 2?[Jasmon]
Secondary 1RP.

Does 11 have any gf/bf?{WangPeng]
He's craving for one.

Have you wanted to punch 1 in the face[Joey]
I'll punch myself 100x more to myself if I were to do that....

Have 21 met your parents?[Alvin]
No....

How did you meet 11?[WangPeng]
School. CCHMS....School....

Did u accidentally physically hurt 3?[Gerontius]
I think so....I do think so....Cos...I think so...

Did u live close to 7?[Jinnee]
Nope, cos I do. In fact only until today I know where she lives.

What's 8's favourite food?[HuiZhen]
"TeKa"(Pig's Trotter)!!!!! No la no la....jkjkjk. She's a vegetarian. So I think it's is one of the vegetables....XD

What kind of car does 1 hav?[Joey]
Maybe her brother has more than one. Maybe, maybe only. *toy cars*

Have you travelled anywhere with 9?[HanXiang]
Everyday.....

If u gave $100 to 9, what would he/she spend it on?[HanXiang]
Are you sure you want to know? I don't even think $100 is enough. He's gonna spend it all on Power Rangers. Or even lamer things. I think most probably Gundam as well. And his wonderful spray paint. And he's this that this that gundams.....