School Sucks
I'm starting to hate school. Then you'll ask me, nobody will like school, or perhaps, I thought you've already been hating it. The thing is that, I just feel the strong sense of resist of me against this stupid place.
I just didn't have such aggressive negative thoughts of that place before. I don't know why it has been bothering me in times. I feel the heart-break whenever I step into the school, especially on Mondays when the nightmares haunts right after the pleasant and peaceful dreams.
Perhaps is those really nice friends who had been through thick and thin with me, and now no longer by my side. My dear friends, when can I ever see you again? How I really wish.
And perhaps is the stress from the work and exams. Tests, lessons, teachers. I don't know. Or perhaps is the jealousy, but I don't understand how I'd ever got that feeling. Most probably is because I'm jealous of people's results. I just wasted 2 years, and right now I'm stucked in such a class, which I just totally find it hard for me to blend into.
I'm envious on how good other teachers are in other classes. But I always try to convince myself that my teachers are still better than the others. I tried. I'm always trying. I want to get closer to my classmates, but just somehow, I feel the magnetic force repelling us away. It's just those kind of disturbance that really irritates me.
Lesson time, I just simply can't understand why can't they just shut up and listen to the teachers. They are like those kind of idiots who don't have self-discipline and don't know what they are doing. They are just way too much. Can't they just keep quiet?
Or perhaps is just that someone who's always on my mind. But the problem is that even me myself can't see that someone I'm thinking of. It may sound weird and bizarre, but indeed, I find it hard to identify who is that person. Maybe I need more time to search for the identity.
Or is it those opportunities that I've missed or misused that are always dwelling in my head? I just wasted too many things, way to much of them. At times, I really hate myself and really gave myself harsh punishments. At times, I really want to sit down and have some coffee or tea and cry our hearts out. I want to ease your troubles, and I wish I can do so to mine as well.
There are just way too much troubles and worries in school. School is just like a prison. They're totally the same.
I wish a wishing star would drop by and mend my broken heart. I can hear my own heart shatter into pieces and falling down to my feet. And I wonder, when can I ever stop crying myself to my nightmares, and start smiling myself to my dreams. Sometimes, I feel like breaking down and smash the ground and shout out loud. But, will there be a shooting star that will whizz by? But, will there be my friends and fly me to the paradise? But, will there be that somebody
and get me out of this nether world?
Star, what a wonderful word.
I just didn't have such aggressive negative thoughts of that place before. I don't know why it has been bothering me in times. I feel the heart-break whenever I step into the school, especially on Mondays when the nightmares haunts right after the pleasant and peaceful dreams.
Perhaps is those really nice friends who had been through thick and thin with me, and now no longer by my side. My dear friends, when can I ever see you again? How I really wish.
And perhaps is the stress from the work and exams. Tests, lessons, teachers. I don't know. Or perhaps is the jealousy, but I don't understand how I'd ever got that feeling. Most probably is because I'm jealous of people's results. I just wasted 2 years, and right now I'm stucked in such a class, which I just totally find it hard for me to blend into.
I'm envious on how good other teachers are in other classes. But I always try to convince myself that my teachers are still better than the others. I tried. I'm always trying. I want to get closer to my classmates, but just somehow, I feel the magnetic force repelling us away. It's just those kind of disturbance that really irritates me.
Lesson time, I just simply can't understand why can't they just shut up and listen to the teachers. They are like those kind of idiots who don't have self-discipline and don't know what they are doing. They are just way too much. Can't they just keep quiet?
Or perhaps is just that someone who's always on my mind. But the problem is that even me myself can't see that someone I'm thinking of. It may sound weird and bizarre, but indeed, I find it hard to identify who is that person. Maybe I need more time to search for the identity.
Or is it those opportunities that I've missed or misused that are always dwelling in my head? I just wasted too many things, way to much of them. At times, I really hate myself and really gave myself harsh punishments. At times, I really want to sit down and have some coffee or tea and cry our hearts out. I want to ease your troubles, and I wish I can do so to mine as well.
There are just way too much troubles and worries in school. School is just like a prison. They're totally the same.
I wish a wishing star would drop by and mend my broken heart. I can hear my own heart shatter into pieces and falling down to my feet. And I wonder, when can I ever stop crying myself to my nightmares, and start smiling myself to my dreams. Sometimes, I feel like breaking down and smash the ground and shout out loud. But, will there be a shooting star that will whizz by? But, will there be my friends and fly me to the paradise? But, will there be that somebody
and get me out of this nether world?
Star, what a wonderful word.
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