Lost, wonder

I dont' know how to say and what to say. I am really lost. I feel pain, but I can't explain and describe. I lost my way, I lost my direction, I lost my target, I lost my aim. I have got to recover my sense of direction and get a compass. But, but there are too many "But"s. But why? Why am I always asking questions rather than answering them? Where can I find the answer? I really don't. I'm really often wondering.....